And here’s the more latter.
Had a good time hanging with Tom.
Smart dude. Talked all all sorts of shit. We’ll hang again. Taking care of myself.
My friend carston lives around here now also have to call him. Gave him the basics. The guy I did mushrooms on the Mississippi with and he accidentally showed me the video with a part where he was getting a blowie. That was funny as shit.
10:45
Yacked with Tina for a while over text. Always good to talk to her.
I can’t shake the feeling something is not right on your end.I have a sixth sense about these things although I do over think it at times.
Not just made it through another night not ok.
I’m here.
You can comment on these posts. It’s safe. Only you here. I have it locked down. call me if you need me. Please.
Just been thinking about you, always do.
You shouldn’t be this scared love.
When you go, if you haven’t already, to the domestic abuse place, see if they can help you make a call you feel safe with. I need to talk to you.
Just, as always, know someone loves the absolute ever loving shit out of you, always has, respects you, sees how strong you are, how smart, how you smile at things with pure joy, including me … And even funny sometimes… 😜 You melt me.
When we went to bed together, we’d just stare at each other and smile. I went to sleep with a big dumb grin on my face every time.
Also this morning, bank run. Damn about time. No mess. And then some mess.
Really, really Miss you…
And moving on…..
I got nothing….
ADHD folks do use a lot ellipsis. At least I do. Aprently it’s a thing. And parentheses.
I have to force myself not to when I’m writing copy for a business or something.
Better than an m dash like so many copywriters. The longer dash, they’re annoying as f***. I’m not even quite sure what they mean. I think it’s denotes a continuation of the idea I don’t even know I just always told him to get rid of them. Because nobody knows what they mean.
Yeah I’m just kind of meandering now. It’s only 11:30. I’m still okay for a decent bedtime. I assume you’re asleep by now. I hope you had a good night.
All right back to the previous subject. If you ever really need a place to go you can come here, want to reiterate that. I’ll be back in the house soon I would think. Not ideal. But it’s something.
Already filed to deal with the house so you know you have a landing place. Not long now I’ll know what’s up. Separate living spaces while things are figured out.
Plenty of space. Not for long. Probably not workable but I’m throwing it out there again.
I’m going to sell that truck it’s $25,000 I don’t need that truck I don’t don’t even like it. I’m just looking for some time. Just a lot of work to do with everything. I could use a bookkeeper to help with all this. I don’t know what all is going on.
Not at all my forte.
The info is probably in andreas phone or the computer there. Don’t even know where the loans are.
I really do want you to tell me if I’m too much. I want to be with you, haven’t really hidden that. Don’t think you have either.
That’s my goal. I want to be set up to be able to make sure everybody’s okay and safe and we have plenty of money and all that.
After that I want to get back to a career. Start making things again I miss making things. Still don’t know what that is. It’s got to be non-profit. Or just my own thing. Something will stick it always does.
The neighbor loves working on startups also….
Or if I have the time a documentary which I’ve been working on in my head and recording more.
I have so much footage and ideas. Not ready to dive into it yet the idea has become more personal. It keeps changing as my life moves forward. The world needs to stop for a while.
I do eventually finish things. I know it doesn’t look like it. My brain throws a bunch of ideas at the wall and eventually something sticks to the wall.
I’ve just got to find my way I will, I always do. I survived all this. I’m making connections again.
Emotional today. Not ln a bad way way. Fucking Rebecca.
Ltsooy. Your my Jillian! Talk to me. Need to know I have this right and I don’t want to be another stressor in your life. Ditto?
Snore away my sleep machine.
7am
Stupid time to wake for me. Be out again soon.
Didn’t do that filing last night like I wanted. Better to take a break anyway and be social. I can do it this morning.
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