Been a day. Kind of a mess.
I want to know how you are. I don’t like when I don’t hear back from you. I, as you know all to well, worry.
I reread the paperwork for my court date coming up about going to the house. Yeah it’s a petty misdemeanor not a misdemeanor. Worst case a fine. The judge knocked it down. Not super after I explained it. Judges seem to like me.
Not a big deal now.
I didn’t do the wrong thing.
9:30 edit:
Went to the grocery store. Ran into a young woman named Gabriella.
Obviously in the distress so I just asked her if she was okay. She beat me to it and asked me for a hug. Sobbed on my shoulder for a while. Held tight for a long time.
I love random moments like that.
I needed it too. Back home and safe. Being careful.
Having me some dinner and going to do something productive hopefully.
Ltsooy.
Edit 11. Pm:
I haven’t heard a no still.
I was contemplating. Should I get me some if it comes up. Been a while.
I decided no. It wouldn’t feel right to me still.
I’m going to keep my eggs in that basket. I think we are figuring this out. Slowly but steady.
Tell me I’m cray cray(yep). It’s hard to read now. You said ditto. Reading between the lines of what you feel comfortable saying is hard.
I’m in shitsvile, it will end eventually. I’m working on it. A new set of problems. I know what I need to do. Just all overwhelming for now.
Come home Jillian. Or I come to you. I don’t care either way. We will figure it out.
We can figure all the shit out we have been through also. We don’t have to do that alone. Just be aware.
I don’t want to miss out on you again.
Everything I wrote in that letter still stands.
Miss your face, and your joey Ramone hair.
I love the shit out of you. You are stuck with this asshole.
And nerd.
December 4rh with Elvis scared of what he is witnessing,. He will run from the building.
You love me…
So want some candy right now. Would totally rald your drawer, untill I get in trouble at least. Wont eat the last of anything. I’m good like that. 😉
Goodnight.
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